July 2012
1 post
February 2012
2 posts
february 15th 2012 listening to: The Audition
Telling a depressed person they are worthless or they let you down is probably the worst thing you could do. Thanks.
January 2012
3 posts
January 19th 2012 I want to achieve a sense of greatness this year. I have had some opportunities come up and I am going to grasp every single one I can. With that being said, I am starting a new project. I am going to take things to the next level. I will not sit and sink into nothing. I will not give up.
January 7th 2012 listening to: Armor For Sleep
life has been boring for the most part. I have been searching frantically for a better paying job so I can move out. I have been looking at apartments and daydreaming about how cute it would be to decorate and have a place to call my own. Yup that has pretty much been my life. I am going shopping with my mom tomorrow which should be fun. She usually...
January 1st 2012 Listening to: Taking Back Sunday-Where You Want To Be
So I spent the night home in bed instead of going out and apparently that “ruined” some of my friends NYE. I don’t really understand why. I am not at all a party girl. The only reason I was going to go out was because I wanted to dress up. Why would me staying home mean that my friends had to stay home? They...
December 2011
10 posts
December 27th 2011 Listening to: Fall Out Boy-Infinity On High I have been writing A LOT lately and I dont know, I just feel a lot better. It is amazing how many people actually read or like or subscribe to my stories. It makes me feel like maybe I am doing it for more than just myself. Yesterday was the most boring day at work, it sucked but at the same time it was great. I literally spent three...
December 21st 2011 Listening To: Sleeping WIth Sirens-Fuck You(Cover) So pretty much the first thing I was told..at 6:30 this morning…at work was that my boss who has pretty much been a mother to me the last 8 years was in the hospital and was taken there by ambulance last night. Not the greatest start to the day. Thankfully the rest of the day went a little better. Got a christmas bonus...
December 18th 2011 listening to: Departure-Jesse McCartney
Went to a random radio show in the middle of nowhere Vermont last night. It was like old times. Just some random little show at a bar. It was weird to see The Cab play there. It was weird that there were like 10 of us standing on the floor. It was just I dont know. It made me think a lot. The whole night did. Do I really want to keep...
December 14th 2011 Listening to: Sleeping With Sirens-Lets Cheers To This
We all know 2011 has been a shitfest for me. I have been all over the place, one day I am content with life and the next everything is a mess. Its my own fault. I should have gotten out when I could, but I didn’t and I have to live with the consequences. Its my fault for not getting the help I need. Its my fault for...
december 10th 2011
I feel like I am constantly competing with everyone in my life. I feel like no one understands. Whether it be for a position at work or for something I want to do in the future. It sucks. I don’t want to hate the people I call my friends.
December 8th 2011
Everyone keeps telling me to chase my dreams, follow them where ever they may take me, never give up on them. What happens when I am tired of chasing them, what happens when they lead me nowhere? I just feel like I am running in circles. I feel like I am accomplishing absolutely nothing. So what do I do? My life has become a joke. I sit for hours trying to get one gig, one...
December 7th 2011 So the other day I was talking to a friend of mines mother and she has been super supportive of everything I do and she is just awesome. She told me to stop stressing because my work was good and I was talented. She told me soon enough someone would see my work and things would take off the way they should. I just wish more people would support me like that. Like I legit broke...
December 5th 2011
Im tired. Im stressed. I dont want to be home. I dont want to be in this state or anywhere near here. Days like today make me seriously consider just putting everything I need in my car and driving out west. Just starting over completely.
December 4th 2011 So I figured out exactly what I want to wear…I just need to assemble it and not spend a fortune. The top I wanted was 100 dollars alone soooo hopefully I can find something similar for cheaper. I also need to lose like 5-10 pounds to properly pull it off. So that is my new goal for the upcoming months.
December 2nd 2011
So i failed twice now with the 365 blog thing. I travel too much and dont always have time to get on to post. Instead I am going to use this as more of a journal now. Things havent been the greatest lately and I feel like maybe if I write things out it will help. So yup…welcome to my journal :)
